Grieving .. Huh?

I have talked and met many new wonderful friends now that we have joined a new family, the Down syndrome family.  I have read and heard that many parents were depressed and cried for days after they found out their child had DS.  I am right in the middle of a book, "Babies with Down Syndrome," and I am only in chapter 2 and I feel horrible.  I feel horrible for all of those people whom have cried and been so depressed over their baby.  I don't quite understand how could one be sad about a beautiful baby that you carried for 9 months, prepared a nursery, possibly had baby showers, filled the drawers full of clothes and blankets; then go through the difficult task of giving birth to that sweet baby.  Don't get me wrong, I grieved, for a totally of probably an hour.  It is a pure blessing to be given a child.  How could you be sad about that. I understand that they might not be your ideal child, have full potential, go to college, get married, have kids, etc.    But they are still your sweet innocent angel.

Probably the one thing that felt like a huge jab to my chest, was when I found out that male DS kids are infertile.  That was hard to read.  I had to take a minute to breathe after that.  But then I got to thinking, all these trials, his disabilities, his health issues that he will have to go through throughout his life, they are only temporary.  He will be perfect in the next life.  It is only temporary. 

He was sent to us for a reason.  For that I do not know, but am eternally grateful for the opportunity.  I still cannot understand why their has to be a lable.  I know he is extra special and has an extra chromosome, but he is just a baby.  A super cute baby that eat, sleeps, poops, is starting to coo and smile at you.  I cannot get enough of his cuteness.  He is just a baby and seems absolutely normal to me.  Just like any other child, he is no different.  I just am so madly in love with this stud muffin and I will take him any way I can get him!!  How could anyone grieve, or feel the need to grieve, when you get to look at this face all day?