Surgery scheduled

Jefferson is growing up too fast.  He is 4 months old already and his surgery is coming up too fast.  I have been worrying about this for almost a year, but I'm just ready to get it over with.  I'm trying my hardest not to stress out about it too much, but it's so hard.  I have a Facebook friend that has a Down Syndrome son that had the exact CHD as Jefferson and he just had surgery 4 weeks ago.  It's nice to have someone to talk to that has gone through the exact same experience.  I'm still terrified.  

I am trying to keep myself busy so I don't have time to think about it.  But time is flying too fast and it will be here sooner than I will have time to not worry. 

Surgery is in 9 more days, on March 25th.  

I know everything will be ok.  I just hate the fact that my baby has to go through this.  He is tough and such an amazing happy kid I just hope this surgery doesn't change him.  And I hope he continues to keep growing!  He is 11 lbs 6oz!  

I love him so much it hurts.  I cannot wait to have him fixed and feeling better.  I cannot wait till he can breathe normal and not like he is running a marathon all the time (his heart rate is usually about 150bpm).  I just pray dr Eckhauser will be patient and make the right decisions for him in surgery and for recovery.  He does these kinds of surgeries all the time.  

These last 9 days are going to fly, let's just get this over with already!!

His beautiful chest before he will have a scar on it for the rest of his life

He sure does love his momma, but not as much as I love him!